It’s been almost 3 years since I’ve updated this blog. One was me putting myself in time out for being unkind. One was a year of silence where I contemplated all that had been given to me and all it meant. The last 8 and a half months have been a flurry of work and dealing with a pandemic.
This sabbatical has been both good and bad for me. Good because I took the time to root myself down in Memphis. I returned to the Unitarian Universalist Association. And while I’m still carrying the reputation of being a recluse, I am now a local CUUPs officer. Last summer I started teaching workshops and performing public rituals.
It’s been bad because I’ve come to realize that there are some areas where I will never feel like I know enough. And in those moments where I act confident, it’s usually false vibrato… Except in emotionally removed way I also understand that I have learned so very much on both spiritual and academic levels that I probably should be confident. If you’ve not been in this space, I don’t suggest it. For those who get what I’m saying on a personal level, I offer my understanding nod and empathy. It’s not a ride I recommend.
For some reason today was the day to wander out of the woods. There are sticks in my hair. My clothes are tattered. I probably look a little wild-eyed as I return. Maybe I’ve grown as a person? I like to think so. Have I grown as a spiritual being? Probably? I don’t know. Maybe not. I do know, however, that I have a lot of nonsense to share when I have the time.
Last year I returned to working as a religious educator while also homeschooling my daughter and being a Girl Scout troop leader. With the pandemic happening, a lot of my work is online, and it’s taking so much longer than it used to. I’m learning (and getting close to possibly releasing) perfumes and oils. I’m still making art.
I have no massive epiphany to share, and I guess that’s the lesson I’ve learned… Massive epiphanies rarely happen (or I’m about to receive one due to stating that).
Anyway, hi. How are you doing?