Wandering Out of the Woods

It’s been almost 3 years since I’ve updated this blog. One was me putting myself in time out for being unkind. One was a year of silence where I contemplated all that had been given to me and all it meant. The last 8 and a half months have been a flurry of work and dealing with a pandemic.

A painting of an auburn-haired woman with green eyes. She is illuminated in a dark room and wears a large multi-color flower crown with gold leafing throughout
Mavka copyright M. Woodland, 2019

This sabbatical has been both good and bad for me. Good because I took the time to root myself down in Memphis. I returned to the Unitarian Universalist Association. And while I’m still carrying the reputation of being a recluse, I am now a local CUUPs officer. Last summer I started teaching workshops and performing public rituals.

It’s been bad because I’ve come to realize that there are some areas where I will never feel like I know enough. And in those moments where I act confident, it’s usually false vibrato… Except in emotionally removed way I also understand that I have learned so very much on both spiritual and academic levels that I probably should be confident. If you’ve not been in this space, I don’t suggest it. For those who get what I’m saying on a personal level, I offer my understanding nod and empathy. It’s not a ride I recommend.

For some reason today was the day to wander out of the woods. There are sticks in my hair. My clothes are tattered. I probably look a little wild-eyed as I return. Maybe I’ve grown as a person? I like to think so. Have I grown as a spiritual being? Probably? I don’t know. Maybe not. I do know, however, that I have a lot of nonsense to share when I have the time.

Last year I returned to working as a religious educator while also homeschooling my daughter and being a Girl Scout troop leader. With the pandemic happening, a lot of my work is online, and it’s taking so much longer than it used to. I’m learning (and getting close to possibly releasing) perfumes and oils. I’m still making art.

I have no massive epiphany to share, and I guess that’s the lesson I’ve learned… Massive epiphanies rarely happen (or I’m about to receive one due to stating that).

Anyway, hi. How are you doing?

8 thoughts on “Wandering Out of the Woods

  1. welcome back! I can relate to everything you said. and CUUPS can be a wonderful thing. at one time I co-started a CUUPS chapter in Flagstaff AZ. Long time ago. 🙂

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    1. Thank you! And yes, Covid has thrown my household around a little since we’re a medical family (but not on the front line), but I think maybe (hopefully?!) we’re settling into a new normal for now. ❤

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  2. Memphis is an interesting town, and I hope you enjoy living there. Glad you’re back. We’ve saved your place by the metaphorical fire pit, Join us when you can!

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