It’s the anniversary of my vows to Apollon. He and I have been together in this relationship we have for 8 years now… 8 years? Has it really been that long?
This year, though, I was told it was time to renew our vows.
I have, admittedly, been avoiding thinking of my actual vows. It’s not that I am avoiding this situation, but it’s just that even after all this time I sometimes feel the immensity and weight of having Him be part of my life at this level. How did this come about? When did this start?
I’m not sure I really have answers to those questions.
And what do I want out of it? That’s what He wants to know with this… All of this time, we’ve been working on what He wants for us and me. Now He wants to know what I want of Him…
That’s not an easy question to answer. Me, who regularly doesn’t know exactly what she wants of her life on a very basic level anyway. I prefer to dream and plan before blindly feeling my way through the actual execution of that.
I can’t do that this time.
This isn’t to say I’m not excited and happy. This is a joyous occasion!
But just like a mortal marriage, it’s a contract that isn’t to be entered into lightly.
The shrine is slowly being prepared. I was given the gift of resin incense and a beautiful turibulum (burner) today by my mother.
So here we go. Countdown to the 7th.
There will be pictures to come, I’m sure.